Blaming.

Being the loud person I am, I'm always talking, telling stories after stories, and some of the stories aren't even mine. Don't get me wrong here, I'm not a gossiper, but a little gossip here and there doesn't always hurt. I wouldn't be able to tell those stories if nobody had told me them. Every body by middle school should have a story; whether its good or bad, short or long, meaningful or pointless, we all have a story. Deanna from the book Story of a girl by Sara Zarr, is probably the story of her school, because her dad caught her having sex with Tommy in Tommy's car. After that, her life started falling apart. She blames everyone but herself, her parents, Tommy, her brother, her friends.

Most of all, Deanna blames Tommy. Whenever her an Tommy are in his car having sex and smoking weed, she complains how Tommny disregards her feelings. She says she doesn't want to have sex, yet every time he asks her to come in his car, she goes with him. She tells him to stop, and get off of her, and he doesn't. She cries every time they have sex, and blames Tommy for not being gentle. In my opinion, she has no right to blame Tommy because she willingly smokes weed and has sex with him. No one makes her do this, so I don't understand why she thinks she can blame Tommy for causing her life to fall apart.

Deanna also blames her brother, who was close friends with Tommy. She blames him for not realizing that something was going on between her and Tommy, and for not putting an end to it. This is also why she blames her friends. She blames her dad because he exposed her secret life. Obviously, sooner or later someone was bound to find out her dirty little secret. 

 Throughout this book, it was hard for me to figure out Deanna's character. This was only because she was a very confusing character, and I don't mean that I was confused, but that she was actually confused. She was stuck in between  making a decision to start her whole life over and move out with her bother (who is a teen parent) or stay home miserable with her dad, but have her friends by her side.

After finishing this book, I have come to the conclusion that I do not like Deanna. Being confused all the time and wondering why people talk about her, Deanna made her own life miserable. She did all of that to herself because no one picked her up physically and put her in Tommy's car, who was 3-4 years older then her. She has nobody to blame and it seems like she's trying to find somebody to blame for her mistakes throughout the whole book.

I shouldn't even be talking. We all probably had those moments when we tried to blame somebody and not take full responsibility. I guess when we start getting older we start taking full responsibility for things and not trying to always blame people. That's a thing everyone has to learn in life, we all make mistakes but it's up to you to take full responsibility.